Author Archives: Betsy

Too Many Teachers

When I was young and started practicing 30 years ago, Zen was not a fad. It was gaining in popularity, but the number of books on the subject was in the tens, not thousands. Similarly, there weren’t so many teachers, … Continue reading

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Back in the Saddle

You know, it’s January. So here I am. The days are getting longer. It’s both pleasantly and eerily sunny and warm. Spring in January, kind of like last year. I feel myself coming out of hibernation, like putting the TV … Continue reading

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Identified

My teacher had another way of expressing being stuck in ego. She called it being identified. Identified with an illusory separate self who I need to protect and promote. I found myself in just such a predicament yesterday. I was … Continue reading

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Half the Worry

Here’s what occurred to me at a one day sitting today with my beloved Zen teacher Norman Fischer. Go for 50% of the worry. It occurred to me when I thought about what I’d like to have accomplished by the … Continue reading

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In My Head

This is where I’ve been living a lot lately. There are repetitive songs. There is a finance calculator running in the background. Phrases that I think I need to remember and figure out are playing over and over. I think … Continue reading

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Being Bored

I am writing this as a parent of a six year old, only child who can’t read yet and whose screen time I have just cut to zero. Add to this that it is summer break and she is not … Continue reading

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Dropping Off

How to realize no self. How do I realize that I am an illusion, that all of this is unreal, that the way I perceive everything is wrong, that an attachment to this body, these thoughts, these feelings – to … Continue reading

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No Thought is True

I think I’m on to something with this lobotomy business. It is both obvious and impossible to get that all I have is this moment in which to realize the truth. Over and over. And over and over I’ve been … Continue reading

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Who am I Really

My friend Jill sent me a quote by Ramana Maharshi. The great Ramana Maharshi. Had a sudden intense fear of death at 17, examined what it was that would die – realized he was not his body, he was not … Continue reading

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Don’t Make Something Out of Anything

Last night when I was practicing yoga, the teacher said to focus on one thing that would help our practice. The helpful phrase that came to mind is one I’ve used and taught hundreds and hundreds of times – “relax … Continue reading

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